I’ve sort of taken a break from my running plan, and kind of a break from running in general. We’ve been super busy with house stuff, but that’s kind of just an excuse. I’m still bummed that I’ve made pretty much no progress in the past year. Right now, I’m still on track to run the Ocean City 5K in the same amount of time I ran it last year… or longer, which doesn’t make me happy at all.
I ran this race last year in 52:15, then I ran the Mercerville Mistletoe 5K in 50:18. Then there was the Dash for Duchenne 5K, 50:29. I also ran a Color Run that wasn’t really timed. I am using this race as a benchmark of progress, which maybe isn’t really fair, because some days you have awesome runs, and some days, you just want to lay down on the side of the road. I can assume that this kind of thing happens for seasoned runners – you fall into a groove based on your fitness level and ability and how hard you train and you probably don’t see a lot of variance in race times. I was expecting that, since I was just starting, I would lose weight and get stronger and get faster the more I ran but it is not working that way at all and it is really discouraging. I feel like I can do better, I can do so much more, so it’s so frustrating that it’s not happening. I do not like to be told “NO.” I skipped my scheduled run yesterday because I just really didn’t want to disappoint myself and thinking about how long it will take and how difficult it will be to try to run a straight mile without stopping really overwhelmed me. I let it get the better of me.
Don’t we all have these days? One of those days where running won’t make it better because running is the problem. I plan to go run tonight, to just start from whatever day I was on in the running plan and make the best of it.
Do you ever have days where it just seems like it’s not fun? Do you ever take a break when you’re having a rough day?